9:57pm

we could spend  the rest of our life saying that we love such a person or thing, when the truth is that we are merely suffering , because instead of accepting love’s strength, we are trying to diminish it , so that it fits the world in which we imagine we live..-The Zahir- p. 79

1:33pm

Where should i head towards? Even if there isn’t an answer, I’ll feel better by writing it down. I’ve looked for a pair of helping hands, but i couldn’t feel them, couldn’t see them. I only face towards the  darkness and hear the sounds of my hopeless  scream.

– from AYA’s  journal-

(one liter of tears)

1:06 AM

Sometimes you cannot believe what you see, you have to believe what you feel. And if ever you are going to have other people trust you, you must feel that you can trust them, too even when you’re in the dark. Even when you’re falling.

-TUESDAY’S WITH MORRIE-

12:55 am

i live love and learn

a realization

My own happiness should not be coming from others. I create my own story, I play my role , and the way I want to end it up? It’s up to me . That you may in control of yourself but not others, one should learn to accept and respect freedom. Learn to let go of the things and people  that needs to be freed, and learn to keep  those who wished  to stay and worth keeping for. That not all people will truly appreciate everything that you do,  no matter how hard you keep on trying to do things that would pleased them. For its not all about pleasing them, it’s should be all about giving what you have,  the best that you’ve  got and not to expect something in return. I realized that you should learn to accept the fact that one day some people will leave you unwanted and unloved. I realized that love is such a wonderful thing, it should not be the reason for all the hurt and pain, for those pain and hurt comes from failed expectations not because you had loved. This world is full of too much violence and hatred but then learn to forgive,  for in forgiveness you’ll attain   a peaceful heart, mind , and soul. For people are dying not of scarcity of food but because of unforgiveness  , not being cared for and unloved.

These were all realizations, I’ve been thinking for almost 2 and a half weeks.

10:15pm

i miss your piano piece…

5:29am

What if i keep distance?

will i be missed?

will my worth be realized?

will my absence be noticed?

will it turn out good?

Or along with my dissappearance and silence will be the end of everything?

its hard to accept that sometimes your act of wanting some space leads to a total end…

but its even harder when all you want is to feel significant and worth it but then it lead to a closed book in someone else’s life…

-anonymous-

hmmm a painful realization i guess…

10:55pm

i miss con today

last nayt 11:40

God is indeed good, thank you.

5:47am

Soon you’ll play the piano in the morning with me sitting beside you, you play and I sing in our early solemn moments. Soon I’ll fix the morning breakfast and you tell the bedtime stories. Soon well have our Sunday picnics, I read my favorite book and you sleeping peacefully in my lap. Soon we’ll run on your favorite hideaway the beach, well lay down under the sun in the morning and dance under the moon and the stars in the evening. Soon well both hold each other’s hands, we’ll grow old together and hopefully die together. As long as we have each other’s heart,as long as there is still love and as long as we keep those little dreams in our pockets, just have faith and believe that it will happen with all your heart and soul, for God is always good soon you’ll see in His time and according to His will and glory. 547 am

i won’t give up the fight men!lols