i am afraid, i don’t want to go back there, in that same old and cold dark empty room.
Jul
18
I silently sat down in darkness, feeling that fear that emptiness. Closing my eyes as the cold air coming from my window gently kissed the tears away from my cheeks. Whispering to the old wind to blow me away, away where you could no longer feel my existence.
Jul
04
we could spend the rest of our life saying that we love such a person or thing, when the truth is that we are merely suffering , because instead of accepting love’s strength, we are trying to diminish it , so that it fits the world in which we imagine we live..-The Zahir- p. 79
Jul
03
Where should i head towards? Even if there isn’t an answer, I’ll feel better by writing it down. I’ve looked for a pair of helping hands, but i couldn’t feel them, couldn’t see them. I only face towards the darkness and hear the sounds of my hopeless scream.
– from AYA’s journal-
(one liter of tears)
Jun
29
Sometimes you cannot believe what you see, you have to believe what you feel. And if ever you are going to have other people trust you, you must feel that you can trust them, too even when you’re in the dark. Even when you’re falling.
-TUESDAY’S WITH MORRIE-
Jun
27
My own happiness should not be coming from others. I create my own story, I play my role , and the way I want to end it up? It’s up to me . That you may in control of yourself but not others, one should learn to accept and respect freedom. Learn to let go of the things and people that needs to be freed, and learn to keep those who wished to stay and worth keeping for. That not all people will truly appreciate everything that you do, no matter how hard you keep on trying to do things that would pleased them. For its not all about pleasing them, it’s should be all about giving what you have, the best that you’ve got and not to expect something in return. I realized that you should learn to accept the fact that one day some people will leave you unwanted and unloved. I realized that love is such a wonderful thing, it should not be the reason for all the hurt and pain, for those pain and hurt comes from failed expectations not because you had loved. This world is full of too much violence and hatred but then learn to forgive, for in forgiveness you’ll attain a peaceful heart, mind , and soul. For people are dying not of scarcity of food but because of unforgiveness , not being cared for and unloved.
These were all realizations, I’ve been thinking for almost 2 and a half weeks.
